halloweeked: friday

GUESS WHAT FRIENDS

ITS FUCKING HALLOWEEKEND

FRIDAY NIGHT SO ONLY PART 1

ALRIGHTY SO HERE I GO(btw kinda drunk rn)

ok so I've been hanging out with this boy and like hes super chill and i like i kinda like him idk man, but like so I've harbored feelings for him for a while and like we finally decided to be fwb and now like i finally confronted him about it and hes like "idk im just not passionate about it" and im like ok why couldnt you have told me earlier like dafuq honesty is the best policy. I don't know im just so tired of this reoccurring pattern of being accepted then rejected. Like wtf is this shit. Im like fucking crying over some boy and this needs to stop. Its unhealthy and like idk. Like its fine im just so tired of feelings and feeling shitty. And the one time i try to go for something not serious i get screwed over too. SO WHATS FUCKING NEW WITH MY LIFE MATE :(

ok peace guys

love
tammy

home

"Home is where the heart is."

Well I'm apparently "home" right now, but I don't really think my heart is here. I feel lonely and sad. All those days in my dorm I was hoping to come home to my comfy bed, in a spacious room with all the privacy I can get, but now that I'm here, I just feel empty. 

I'm nostalgic. I pass by places that I used to drive by everyday, I see things that remind me of people and memories, I hear the silence that I used to experience. 

Everything is so familiar, yet so empty. 

All I want to do is go back to college. But then when I go back, I want to come back here. 

So where is my heart? Where is my home?